So... there's this girl and I think I like her. We've been coworkers for a while now and I guess I always flirted with her but, I never really thought much of it. She was just a friend. Recently we started hanging out on the weekends and we've gotten really close and spent a couple of nights together. Everything was cool. One day she looked at me and asked me if I liked her and that she needed to know because she's 'been lied to so many times before'....and I couldn't answer it. Just couldn't. Like, wtf is wrong with me?! Of course, I like her. For some odd reason, I couldn't give her an answer full of certainty. I guess it's because that I never really considered my feelings towards her. The past few days, I haven't stopped thinking about her. I
can't. I want to, and I want to go back to the way things were before but, I can't. I've become so infatuated with her. She asked why I'm avoiding her and I don't know why. I like her but, I just hate relationships. They always hurt in the end and I know things won't last. Fwb is one thing, but every time I invest emotionally in someone I've gotten hurt. We're different ages and in different point in our lives so, there's no way things would work out. She has kids and I'm just a kid with little to no responsibilities. I'm not good enough for her. I work at a burrito joint and am just now starting college, three years after finishing high school. (Which reminds me orientation is tomorrow. Thanks odt, I almost forgot. Gotta set my alarm). This is sooo ridiculous. I know it can't last, I think that she realized that so, why can't I just tell her how I feel right now and enjoy it while it lasts? So, now it's midnight, I'm a little drunk and spent the last half of my shift avoiding her. And I'm considering posting all of this on the odt. Jeez, I'm pathetic. I guess I just want someone to tell me that I'm crazy or I don't know what. I just need some guy to guy adivice.
can't. I want to, and I want to go back to the way things were before but, I can't. I've become so infatuated with her. She asked why I'm avoiding her and I don't know why. I like her but, I just hate relationships. They always hurt in the end and I know things won't last. Fwb is one thing, but every time I invest emotionally in someone I've gotten hurt. We're different ages and in different point in our lives so, there's no way things would work out. She has kids and I'm just a kid with little to no responsibilities. I'm not good enough for her. I work at a burrito joint and am just now starting college, three years after finishing high school. (Which reminds me orientation is tomorrow. Thanks odt, I almost forgot. Gotta set my alarm). This is sooo ridiculous. I know it can't last, I think that she realized that so, why can't I just tell her how I feel right now and enjoy it while it lasts? So, now it's midnight, I'm a little drunk and spent the last half of my shift avoiding her. And I'm considering posting all of this on the odt. Jeez, I'm pathetic. I guess I just want someone to tell me that I'm crazy or I don't know what. I just need some guy to guy adivice.
I feel like I'm going crazy. For example, she asked me if I wanted to hang out tonight and I just kinda changed the topic. So we leave work and say goodnight. Ok. I desperately wanted her to chill but, I wasn't about to bring it up. So, I go to the gas station and park at the most conspicuous pump. And lo and behold, she follows me there. Ok, so she needs to fill up on gas. I'm obviously reading too much into it, right? No. I went to the bathroom (that' second torta didn't do me any good) get some beer, and load up on gas. She was gone by the time I walked outside. A minute later she calls me and asks why I avoided her at the gas station. It's like we both wan't the same thing, I'm just not sure it's the right thing.
